Muninn
Burnt out, over the hill autistic IT nerd and longtime SSC lurker
User ID: 3219
Muninn
18hr ago
Good for her and I totally get the Kelce angle, those boys lucked out in the genetics department. I've been a big fan of Saquon myself, my big concern was whether or not he would stay healthy followed by, "are we actually gonna commit to running the damn ball this year?!?" And, wow, I guess when I think about it, I've been a fan for decades myself, hence the recalcitrant pessimism that can only come from decades of being so close only to taste disappointment, which to be fair is something that is a staple of long-term fans of the Birds. "They lost a game, the season is over!!"
Muninn
19hr ago
The game started off iffy for the iggles, my mother went all the way from saying "Saquon doesn't have it and the Eagles are going to lose, might as well bench him to protect him for the rest of the season, no injuries" in the first quarter
ROFL, clearly your mother is a dyed-in-the-wool, hardcore Eagles fan!
Muninn
2d ago
Wow, I want to thank everyone for awarding me an AACQ! I figured if anyone would appreciate a long-winded, repetitive, and self-indulgent peek into a typical bureaucratic/Molochian death spiral it would be my fellow Mottizens and it's heartening to see that it was so. I hope to write and contribute more in the future when my personal life isn't quite so demanding.
Muninn
16d ago
Check out Out of the FOG, it's got a lot of good info on personality disorders, associated behaviors, and best ways to preserve oneself. If you're interested specifically in Borderline mothers, I'd highly recommend reading Understanding the Borderline Mother which is, of course, out of print and relatively expensive. AFAIK it's pretty much the reference material on how BPD presents to children and spouses, regardless of sex.
Source: my mother is BPD as are many women on her side of the family.
Muninn
19d ago
American Hinduism is closer to ACX-Rationalism than the sort of conservative thought that is ascribed to India's rural Hindi heartland.
LOL, data set of one and all, but this individual cornfed, white bread, SSC/ACX lurking American Hindu agrees with you!
I'm reluctant to post this last part because I don't expect anyone to take this seriously.
Listen, I'm just a crazy spirit helping out my diety, so my opinion and $6 will get you a nice festive White Peppermint Mocha from Starbucks, but I take your experience as serious as a heart attack and completely believe that it happened to you exactly as you described it. In my own family my paternal grandmother was infamous for her presence in her home after she passed away until my grandfather joined her several years later. Both he and my uncle received occasional guidance from her and at least one direct message, usually when they were looking for something. Sounds woo woo and hokey, right? But how would you feel if you were wondering where that screw was that dropped out of your glasses and a thought came unbidden into your mind and said, "it's in the heel of your shoe!" It blew my grandfather's mind for sure. While I never had a personal experience involving her after her passing, it felt like she was hanging around the house to me, too. In fact, I'd say that her presence was palpable while he still lived. I've had many other personal experiences in my life as well, more than enough to satisfy my own questions about life, death, the afterlife, etc.
Now if you'll excuse me, I have to go torment some drunken writer/poet...
Muninn
21d ago
Interesting piece, thanks for sharing! Reading a lot of that was intensely familiar, though I'd quibble with some of the premises of the series. But I was heartily amused by the talk of Axis II disorders in the DSM III and in fact had originally written a throwaway line about how over-represented personality disorders were on both sides of the mental health industry, but decided it would probably be too distracting. The psychotherapy CPT code graph was likewise spot-on and the talk about medical billing code complexity was as well. As the piece said, we in the MH field actually have it relatively easy, though anyone who's ever messed with interactive complexity knows full well that as with everything in this business, "easy" is relative!
Muninn
24d ago
I've only used Epic as a patient but from that perspective it's always seemed fine to me. My understanding is that on the other side of things, it's layers upon layers of complicated but then, so is the practice of medicine itself, so yeah.
AI is looking like we could probably feed it the bulk of our documentation and let it spit out nice notes for the majority of staff, but of course HIPAA. I don't use it much myself, personally, but then again I'm constantly context switching between our EHR side and our IT side and my personal goal is to pass on as much institutional knowledge as I can. I can remember when my old boss was jealous of me because I got to build fun things and learn while he had to ride herd on the clinical side. Now I'm doing what he did while the young IT Specialist is building fun things and learning new stuff. He did learn the hard way that anything he touches, he owns that way though!
Muninn
24d ago
Yeah I don't mind the skimming at all, even though I had fun doing the repetition bit when I was writing the piece, it bloated it significantly. But this is the Motte, after all, and the one commenter who replied to me wanted the detail so I ended up going with it.
Can't think of anything that I could really tell you that you wouldn't have already encountered. I don't need to tell you how awful the healthcare bureaucracy is, right? Though maybe I will add that our most common doc issue is that they can't e-prescribe to the client because someone went and added a full address to the "address 2" field of the client profile, exceeding 40 characters and also obviously breaking address verification. That one ended up being thanks to an instruction from the clinical head who evidently was never taught Federal address standards...
If you're interested, our clinical side has largely been neglected in EHR land for the last 8 years as two different medical heads did not or did not want to get involved in that area. The next medical head pulled a Brave Sir Robin after trying her best to do that and still be a Psychiatrist for a year, and I can't blame her. I've been in a few meetings with the new head of medical, who is an old-timer, and have discovered that the institutional knowledge problem that I harp on is a big issue there as well, mostly because we could probably streamline some stuff out of the workflow for the docs (Meaningful Use has been over for a while, after all) but also because the nurses abandoned their actual note along the way and started using an outpatient note instead, leading to the loss of data and my employer getting its wrist slapped by the State. Definitely a LOL moment for me!
And thanks for the read, it had me sympathetically SMDH many times!
Muninn
24d ago
Yeah, I apologize for the lack of clarity, my fingers are in so many different pies that it'd be hard to list them all. Off the top of my head, though, I'm still doing lots of data analyst and EHR admin as well as major pieces of the different data that we ship to our State for various departments and initiatives, Exchange admin, 365 admin, network admin, general server admin, help desk (we're all vulnerable to walk-ins, after all), some firewall/security stuff... in fact, I actually built an antispam server from open source wow, 21 years ago, and ran it until we modernized our network in 2011. That particular guy was one of my prouder accomplishments until I got into the guts of administering our current EHR platform. Anyway, the truth of the matter is that ever since that point and really earlier that on any given day I was putting out whatever fire was the biggest, if there was one, and if there wasn't then I was waiting for the inevitable.
On the whole HIPAA thing, yeah definitely not so much plugged into opaque databases. For all that the minimum necessary rule tries to restrict information, in the mental health world we do all kinds of wacky stuff that makes trying to even tamp down staff access difficult. When it comes to higher up stuff, most of the work we do is still wide open, though there are restricted clients that require an extra level of access, even to those that can generally access all clients with impunity. Fun fact: I actually had to go in and fix a family member's record not too long ago. They had been restricted because I worked there but still, someone made a mistake and there it was. I already knew said family member had gotten themselves TDO'ed so it just tickled my dark heart but if we had our act together and I was actually just doing IT proper stuff I'd never have to do that. And because I'm on the subject, I just can't even with all of the HIPAA breaches I've seen. Lots of them are genuine, "didn't get the memo/comprehend the training," type stuff like emailing documents with PHI in the wild, which our antispam gateway doesn't always catch, but there have been a few doozies, too. One of the saddest involved a staff who had somehow discovered that her boyfriend was also dating a client of ours, and said staff looked at the client's record and then proceeded to dig herself into a deeper hole trying to cover it up. Just a sad story and the only one I've seen prosecuted. Surprisingly, we've actually been forced to rehire staff that breached HIPAA and got terminated for it!
Anyway, I completely agree with you about needing a better standard than O'Connor and for me that's a real example of how my individualist ideals can lead to serious suffering in the real world. I can think of a few different "frequent flier" type clients that really would be better off institutionalized and that doesn't even touch clients that are homeless and suffering. And sadly, refusing medication for some of our most mentally ill clients goes hand in hand with being frequent fliers. I'm hopeful that we can find newer and better drugs for the folks that suffer from the terrible side effects (some folks do tend to think they're just fine without the meds) but then again, if you've ever read Scott's banger on esketamine, FDA approval is another thing on the long list of reasons that We Can't Have Nice Things.
Muninn
25d ago
I am enjoying Songs of a Lost World immensely thus far. The themes of aging, sadness, and loss speak directly to my experiences, even more so since 2024 has turned into another, "buckle up, buckaroos," kind of year of sweeping changes for me personally. I'm thrilled that The Cure has released an album this damn good in this day and age (and with multiple vinyl and cassette versions to boot!) and it's quite the poignant experience to listen to something that is so on point to my middle-aged self and that also makes my inner Goth Kid squee in delight.
Muninn
26d ago
I want my body to be cremated, I want the ashes to be transmitted in a metal Folger's can, and then I want them scattered at the edge of a cliff into the Pacific Ocean.
Muninn
1mo ago
IRL, I used to work in the same building as a therapist and I used go to lunch with him. He told me it's fairly common in male victims of child rape to fetishize the behavior, that is, at least in the ones who are troubled enough to seek therapy. This didn't take place in a therapy-happy country mind you.
When I was a young man in a long distance relationship I would often end up listening to Loveline with Adam Corolla and Dr. Drew on my way back home Sunday evenings. One of those nights, they were discussing this in the more general context of the sexual experiences of children. Adam was talking about how while he was initially skeptical of the connection between adult sexual issues and childhood experiences, with enough time and repetition, he had come to believe that Drew was onto something when he always asked folks about their childhood when this sort of thing came up. He went on to liken a child's mind to wet cement that was slowly drying. Those childhood experiences would make an impression on the cement that ultimately cured into sexual expectations and preferences as an adult.
This made sense to me at the time and speaking as someone who works in the mental health field and is married to a therapist, I've heard more than enough stories like this myself to believe that this is the most likely explanation for all sorts of sexual preferences.
Muninn
1mo ago
Haven't read Andromeda but completely agree on 12 Miles Below. I read the first one and ended up devouring the entire series several months back and I'm hoping there's more soon!
Muninn
1mo ago
Thank you very much, that's excellent news! A cursory search has led me to an unofficial plug-in to support remote save; I'll give it a try and see if I like it better than Joplin.
Muninn
1mo ago
Damn. Speaking as a Joplin user who had never heard of Obsidian before, I really like the look of Obsidian and would love to use its additional functionality (compared to Joplin) but at $4 a month for non-local storage that's a no-go for me. A big part of my use case is the ability to make notes to myself on whatever device I have handy that I can encrypt end-to-end and automatically sync via WebDAV.
Muninn
1mo ago
"Intelligence Agencies create stories inside stories, each with its carefully constructed trail of evidence, in order to create false trails as diversions.”
Muninn
1mo ago
I want to post an update on the status of my effortpost on the state of mental health care in my state. The first draft has weighed in at 8,202 words and, as trying to write the conclusion made clear to me, is heavy on legal and regulatory explanation. In fact, it is mostly a narrative of the impact of said legal and regulatory framework on our various clinics, seen through the lens of my own role in that, but light on outcomes, client stories and the like. While I can cram some of that into the conclusion, I'm planning on a rewrite that will try and flesh out how things have changed for our clients a little bit more than just the standard, "client care in these departments is suffering," and streamline the legal and narrative stuff, hopefully significantly. Or perhaps my perfectionism is getting the better of me. Either way, I'll find out as I get into the second draft. Stay tuned!
Muninn
2mo ago
Given that you're already curious, I'd definitely recommend it. The movie is what got me to read the book as well, and while I'd agree that the source material differs substantially from the movie, one of the things that I was able to better appreciate after reading the book is how well the movie does at both creating the strange atmosphere and conveying how deeply the MC (Keel) falls down the rabbit hole. I'm not a UFO/UAP buff or anything like that but my dad was so I'm familiar enough with the basics, but that book was my first exposure to the Esoteric explanation and I found it to be every bit as unnerving as the movie!
Muninn
2mo ago
Interesting, thanks for the recommendation! My first exposure to the Esoteric case for UFOs/UAPs was reading The Mothman Prophecies for the first time but I've never shaken it since. The publicly released videos from the Navy have seemed more Esoteric than Explorer to me as well, though to be fair that might well be because my bias had already been established at that point.
Muninn
2mo ago
Thanks for the feedback, everyone, you've convinced me to write the post. October is a busy month for me so it may not be ready anytime in the next week but still, coming soon!
@AvocadoPanic, when I used the word horrendous I was thinking in terms of money spent versus the quality of the outcomes, not necessarily any other state or country.
Muninn
2mo ago
How interested would you be in an effortpost about the (horrendous) state of public mental health care in one of the worst states in the USA as told from the perspective of someone with 25+ years of employment experience in the field? I love it whenever Scott (PBUH) posts on these things and I find that it just whets my appetite to talk about it more but maybe that's just my inner geek coming out and that wouldn't be as interesting to most Mottizens. Regardless, it seems like a promising thing to post about and if there's significant interest then I'd be happy to do it but fair warning: it wouldn't be pretty and there would be lots of references to Moloch and not being able to have Nice Things.
Muninn
2mo ago
I'll add my voice to the split keyboard users. In my case, I tried out the OG M$ ergonomic keyboard as an experiment because being left-handed, my index finger had a nasty habit of trying to type keys meant for my right index finger. All these years later, I just inadvertently killed my M$ Natural 4000 and am strongly considering picking up a used version to keep me going
Muninn
2mo ago
Erm, pardon me for quibbling, but my sense of the early internet was that it more consistently leaned libertarian, which is to say, pro-freedom, rather than straight left. The rise of social media in general and Facebook in particular is what made the move leftwards inevitable in my view, compounded by smartphones and the accompanying push notifications designed by the literal Devil himself.
Not that I'm old or anything, but the first Eagles memories I have are my brother and my father singing a song about a Dick Vermeil Super Bowl team set to the twelve days of Christmas. Separately, I can remember being annoyed at another time because the game was on and I wanted to play something on the Atari. But since I was talking about the deep-seated pessimism that can only exist from being so close so frequently only to taste disappointment, TO's first year was the next time I saw the Birds make it to the Super Bowl over 20 years later. Making it twice in the last decade is really a welcome improvement given that the next best thing was eternally losing the NFC championship and Big Red going off to Hawaii to coach the Pro Bowl.
Again.
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