mrvanillasky
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mrvanillasky
13hr ago
1mg is a good dose, you cannot come off it ever btw, once you start. You can also use dutasteride if fin isnt good enough. I don't know the dosage for that though.
mrvanillasky
13hr ago
oh yeah, good point lol. fixed it
mrvanillasky
17hr ago
I have a chronic masturbation problem and have always had runny cum. I'm most certainly alright, I didn't wanna hide any info.
Finasteride is safe, I just need to jack off less.
Start finasteride immediately, don't look up the side effects, many people give themselves placebo. Also take minoxidil and maybe microneedle once a week. Been on it for 2.5 years, I'm 24, zero side effects till now
My actual output was close to 4 though, I wish to hit 12 on the time I spend working and what I get out.
I'm very behind on life, as long as I keep pushing more and balance that with meditation, a good rohtine, working out, I should be able to work more. Again working on the right thing the fight way matters too so I'll post more details.
I'll keep posting here, 9 hours is a good aim for 7 days.
mrvanillasky
1d ago
There are many benefits, watch that video I linked, I can't state that you can't attain it without having put in the requisite time.
How long have you been pracitising for and how regular, what sect?
mrvanillasky
1d ago
Why is it tragic? Religion is fundamental to human existence, and even Christians have a school of contemplative practise. Though the Himalayas had the best schools for it. I dont want that side to do it then. If chanting a mantra for lord shiva is such a pain then people are best suited to the Sam Harris School of meditation which is not far off from Hustlers University in terms of rigor when compared to real schools.
No one I know started with the explicit goal to achieve enlightenment of the kind Shinzen Young had and it took him decades to get there. This is not me being rude, I am a noob at life but do you not think that the only correct answer for this for your own perspective can only come once you spend 5-10 years of following a proper path? You may have in which case I have nothing to add.
There is no mismatch, there has never been any mismatch and the people I know who do meditate never think about enlightenment as a goal. Might be because we are all beginners compared to someone like Hareesh Wallis. I have crippling ADHD, extreme issues not just from my lifestyle, life choices but also at a neurological level. I find profound benefits in this and was recommended to meditate even by my therapist in my psychiatrist's office.
You can meditate to be more grounded on a moment-to-moment basis. That, to me, is liberating, and anyone who sticks with it can give a decent answer for it. Enlightenment likely is real, but I can only know if I sit daily for an hour or more for decades on end. I purposefully dont read about it, I want to just sit and do whats needed, I can only experience things once I do that, anything else and I am ensuring that I dont get there.
@TowardsPanna is the right guy for this as he's a more experienced meditation practitioner than I am.
With regards to enlightenment, there are various paths in various traditions. I am not on the Buddhist track that many follow and I can't comment on the ideas about enlightenment properly though I will come back to this after a few days.
I have been meditating on and off for two years and nothing comes close to the equanimity I feel once I practice. It may be true that how you say people perceive enlightenment may not exist as we think it does but the benefits of meditation are profound, way stronger than any intoxicant I've tried and I've tried some.
Also jains and Hindus aren't the same. Buddhist meditation practices and the good Hindu ones come from the himalayas where you had intermingling of traditions, Himachal Pradesh, Jammu and Kashmir, Ladakh and Tibet being places where bulk of what we do indirectly has roots to. Ultimately I don't care about enlightenment as much, not because kashmir shaivism the school I'm a part of via tantra illuminated doesn't talk about it but because even getting closer to it than where I'm at would be life changing in the most literal sense.
There are people I've spoken to who are probably in a similar boat as you, but they can't recommend this stuff enough for the same reason. I'd definitely like to hear more, but for any theory, @TowardsPanna is the guy. I just paid 10 dollars for a three-month membership for Tantra Illuminated, so I was surprised to see this here. Happy coincidence.
edit - another happy coincidence, I saw this video of Shinzen Young describing the benefits of long-term meditation
mrvanillasky
1d ago
How have the results been so far though? do you ever feel that llms are too boring so kinda hard to keep a girl interested in texting you? regardless cool project.
I started mathacademy (50 dollars a month is literally half my pocket money, but worth it) today and spent 4 hours there. My median day programming is about 3-4 hours now up from previous weeks but still a total noob. I want to finish this short book "Javascript the good parts". After that my co-founder wants me to do typescript. I did hit the gym thrice so I am doing more, but does not feel enough.
Working out, writing front-end code, meditating, and doing math—I hope these daily activities help me a lot. I used to write long-winded paragraphs here and never do anything, so at least this is a start. I still struggle with a lot of issues, and my parents are rightfully worried that I will be left behind in Rajasthan forever. I will post more updates. Next week, I will aim for 7 hours of Javascript and 2 hours of math.
My interest in Twitter and the internet is now close to zero. I don't wanna know what xyz tech guy or nrx anon is upto, even girls since I nuked Instagram, there is endless info out there that is just pointless, I dont want to be 30 and still in a limbo, I am somewhat happy that I did something. 9 hours of work every day is a reasonable target given I can hit 8 now, I do feel tired and stupid after it.
edit - 8, so a few months before turning 25, I hit the daily work target of the average guy. I dunno if I should be happy about it or sad, definitely better than what I did last week, month or decade.
mrvanillasky
5d ago
Pendulum is encapsulates two genres of music from the 2000s, rock and drum n bass. I first heard them at age 13 in 2013, I'm glad they still make music, though like all bands that reunite, they do seem past it.
Its early 2010s in a capsule, I'm glad they are still together. I do wish to listen to real deal classical music. Mozart, Bach, some Hindustani classical stuff too. I had this cringe notion f wanting to appear higher status and never danced or listened to music or learnt to play any instruments despite my parents begging me to. I wish I listened to them instead now.
mrvanillasky
6d ago
A lot of music is about sex and liquor. It was jarring when I started noticing this 3 years ago lol. Not as aggressive as hip hop but pretty on the nose.
I am two years younger than you, the part about it being recession inspired is fairly obvious in hindsight, somehow you see music from that time being played more frequently in nightclubs than pop music made today.
I really think that music, modern mass produced music peaked in the late 2000s and early 2010s and 2020s barely saw anything distinct besides some people who took off due to having songs that won't stop playing when you open ig.
mrvanillasky
6d ago
Half life 2 is my favorite game. I feel old, even though I was 4 when it came out and played it at 19.
Games used to be good :')
mrvanillasky
6d ago
it is rough man, you genuinely are being nice and the girls likely are used to being around rude motherfuckers, so even if you just act nice, they probably think you are trying to flirt or are being rude to you for not flirting.
I like short hair on women too, the last girl I was into was a short haired reactionary. I would highly suggest that you pick up the book of yareally and consider cold approaching. You dont have to do it every night for hours, 2 nights on the weekend plus field reports would be of immense help. I was a complete chode, at 21, I had my heart ripped by this girl with short hair. A poster on themotte suggested the book of yareally to me.
Book of yareally and sex god method are great starting points. This stuff changed my life and it will help you. Also meditate regularly if you dont, in case you encounter rude cunts like them again, you not being phased by their snark would make them feel worse and you better. Girls want validation, you having ice in your veins (maybe you already do) would deflate them. I have encountered rude ones too, my advice comes from personal experience.
Do post about your female issues here, most advice here is super helpful, cant overstate this enough.
mrvanillasky
6d ago
I don't know, I've spoken with euros and some north americans and never experienced such things. This was again in bars and nightclubs.
mrvanillasky
6d ago
In case his intention is to flirt, then he should be direct.
So if you're just being nice and girls act snarky then yeah, shouldn't bother talking to them at all.
mrvanillasky
6d ago
Listened to some more music from the past. Pendulum recently uploaded their cover of the taylor swift song anti-hero. Electronic music peaked in the early 2010s given how little new stuff we have coming out that is any different.
More music is being made today, but somehow it sounds less creative and generally worse. I am not old and feel like my dad when I say this. My dad famously only listens to music pre-90s since and he was my age in the 90s lol. Art forms peak and decline, electronic music might be this way.
mrvanillasky
6d ago
I knew he was likely wrong, I just wanted to hear what others thought about it since I have not been with girls for more than a few hours at a time and no one talks about politics in nightclubs.
mrvanillasky
6d ago
His situ is not easy though, I probably exaggerate whatever the girl said and genuinely say something that I find funny. Being self-deprecating once or twice is fun but not everytime.
mrvanillasky
6d ago
I used to attempt to strike up friendly conversations with with people in general, but naturally with an emphasis on not-unattractive women. Not in a particularly flirty way, either.
Do the opposite, start with flirty stuff around hot girls. Girl issues are normal and I sense that the girls you talk to can sense that you want to flirt but are on the fence. Also if you want to go home with girls you meet, never go away unless its fiarly obvious, no need to be creepy but getting a strong rejection once or twice is not bad at all.
Please write more about your issues. I was terrible with girls, somewhat better now.
mrvanillasky
6d ago
Flip the script
Is that from mystery method or what?
You can just avoid shit tests entirely, the new meta so to speak by guys like fastlife is to avoid shit tests altogether. Also you are right about not wanting such girls around though the advice to leave is not good. If you wish to spend the night with the girl and her remarks are not completely crazy in a serious way then you should burn the set to the ground, at least then you would know more about what your own standards with this stuff is and if your own approach had issues.
op mentioned how he would talk to unattratcive girls without the intention to flirt, that cant be helpful unless you are simply building state.
mrvanillasky
6d ago
yes, she knows whats up, you know whats up and you hiding it is a complete turn off. You dont have to explicitly verbally agree to stuff but your subcomms and intent should.
A while back a girl asked me if I fancied her, I gave a non answer and was hesitant, trying to act cool which I should not have.
mrvanillasky
6d ago
Time blindness is very very real, especially for those like me with severe adhd.
Old man fight week
Tyson vs Paul is sad, Tyson is too old to be fighting even with roids. Paul has made a decent amount of money by fighting smaller, older, chinny people who have terrible technique. Jones v Miocic is not far off, Miocic is clearly washed and Jones is clearly nearly washed too and does not wish to fight tom aspinall. Weidman is washed af and he is on teh card too. The only decent fight is oliveira vs chandler and I think even they both are in their late primes or probably declining already.
Alum meetup at a wedding reception
went out with my dad for the reception of one of my dads ex-student (2nd marriage, first was 5 years ago). My dads a senior prof in the uni I went to, got his job at 22, would teach blow off social science classes in an engineering school so he is super popular with students. UNlike other people he was nice to them would have many over for drinks every week for a few decades. My senior invited plenty of alums and they all got drunk, I did not since I take concerta. Their stories were mostly about ragging or fagging or hazing depending on where you live is good, how they liked it, how the seniors and juniors developed a bond because of it. Also stories about beating up people from other schools, flrting with research scholars and mostly missing old times. We don't have any rituals at all here, in my nation I mean, both in high schools and unis. I am not sure how good this stuff was.
My uni experience was different, most dudes look like wusses compared to these guys, we had zero interactions with seniors, the only thing people did after class was watch movies, all the dudes hated me because they thought that I was someone who was good with girls.
It's amazing lol, don't let my texting adventures deter you.
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