mrvanillasky
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mrvanillasky
17d ago
Short little off tangent rant, India lacks a right-wing since it is a place where the demographics are mostly OBC and below so the upper castes get shut out of things. I was a big part of what people call Hindu Twitter which at the time (2020) seemed interesting but like all movements has gotten stale after its main talking point got exhausted. The bulk of it is mostly upper castes and some middle castes who now call every white a Wignat (Wigger nationalist), a term no one outside of them and Nick Fuentes has used. I heard Nick use it for Richard Spencer as Spencer did not care much for Christianity. The main issue for hindu twitter was ofc caste and how the grievances exist but people above the middle class do not know about them
Well, all of Hindu Twitter thinks that all whites are evil racist and are wishing for a Kamala win so that the US gets flooded with migrants and explicitly wishing for bad things to happen. This is a hilariously incorrect understanding of the world. People like Thiel or Musk may have racial preferences but are not out-and-out white nationalists or white supremacists. Ironically, all their talking points are recycled from other tweets, so you never get any mindful discourse there. People too full to even read Moldbug are not in it for intellectual honesty or rigor.
This tweet calls thiel a racist which is just false since his fund for the longest time was run by an Indian guy. Anti-Indian sentiment has grown primarily because some Indians are smart and have representation in white collar anglo society which disqualifies them from being treated with kid gloves. Top that off with a population of 1.5 billion with low hbd and high levels of distrust and you get legit hygiene, call centre scams issues. Some Indian founder pointed this out and got called racist by Hindu Twitter.
My big reason behind leaving the discourse was realising that most people there are too bitter to ever do anything well in life, more than that calling 1990s liberal viewpoints and some viral tweets a sign of extreme anti-India racism seems a little wild. Elon Musk is not bankrolling racism against people, if he were, he would simply hire based on that which he does not. The perpetual need to be a victim is hilarious. I ofc don't want to have this comment reach the people on twitter as I like beigng anon but it is simply hilarious.
I will never go back to that place, I wish I never wandered there in the first place given how negative everyone there is.
How will 2024 be remembered?
So Trump got endorsed by Joe Rogan, and people have already made comments on that, what I am wondering is, in case Trump loses and you catch actual voter fraud on camera, enough to convince people that elections are not as legitimate as they think they are, will there even be any consequences at all?
What surprised me was Elon publicly talking about demographics where he admits that you can simply flip states by adding a bunch of immigrants, I never expected anyone famous to ever admit this. This is one of the richest people on the planet who gets government contracts, this is extremely ballsy (which I think he is and I wish to be like that).
Think about it, plenty of people on frog Twitter were voting without American citizenship, at what point will the burden of evidence be enough if it even exists for the Supreme Court to acknowledge anything? I think Harris will win and the west will keep taking in migrants by the boatful but I would like to see Trump win.
This video titled the year 4chan won is a good little throwback to 2016 and what that looked like. Ofc 4chan has been neutered now and Trump is not as fringe as he once was. In 2020 Trump was not someone would touch with a 10-foot pole, in 2024, he has a whole lot more support from the mercantile class. Not sure why that is. Maybe this is thermidor, a temporary one.
My recollections of 2016 are clouded. I was barely 16 at the time, and though I was aware of the American culture war, I was fairly sure Trump would lose and did not care much either. I was 16 and not American. I woke up one morning and saw Trump winning, not knowing how much more I would be into this as a spectator during 2020 and 2024.
mrvanillasky
21d ago
Delhi smog is caused by the terrible industrial setup in India and people burning agricultural waste in punjab. Blaming diwali for smog is the same as blaming GTA games for shcool shooters. Fireworks are not healthy but the underlying cause is far far worse which is farmers in punjab and Indias abysmal living conditions.
Look up the river yamuna or ganges, like every Indian water body they get raw sewage dumped in them. This is also why Indiasn congregate to goa as literally every other water body is polluted to the point where it stinks from a mile away. Yamuna looks like its a free bubble bath due to the fucking foam.
Also swastikas are everywhere here lol, I helped paint some yesterday. It is a holy aryan symbol, just that euros and north americans cant use it.
This is Diwali week here in North India. I had a fun time, people make sweets, light up thier houses, in my city, markets are lit up too. There are fireworks everywhere, people burst crackers. A lot of shopping gets done, the air starts cooling down. It marks winter here. People who are not wokring soul crushing white collar jobs in a metropolis get a week long holiday here on the week of diwali. You have diwali themed parties too where people wear kurta pyjamas and play poker whilst sloshed. Also my mothers birthday yesterday, i gifted her some clothes, we did not do much else as it was also diwali. Earlier my grandad and dad would go to city palace here as grandad was a part of the royal staff due to being a part of the former feudal system but stopped as my grandads 92 now and broke his femur in half 4 months ago so cant walk much.
Here is some food that I ate yesterday, potato curry with puris (deep fried whole wheat bread) and kheer (rice pudding). Kheer is my favourite food on the planet, it takes a little time to make but well worth it. The recipes have english captions.
I saw the fights last weekend where Max Holloway got flatlined completely. He had it coming, you cannot fight for so long with small gloves in the best weight division and take this many shots, no matter who you are, you will get kod. The other fights were not as fun, Rob's freak injury and Rakic being gunshy was not fun to watch. I have had a bit of a change of heart in terms of MMA, I don't find it as fun now. I have been following it for 8 years now, just not as exciting now. The CTE stuff and fighter pay is another part of it.
My shoulder feels a little wonky. I got a partial labrum tear on my right shoulder 5 months ago, no surgery needed. I joined the gym again for the first time and feel slight pain in my shoulder even though I used way lighter weights and aimed for like 20-25 reps. I think I should not to go to failure on my exercises otherwise this can get worse. Will work out tomorrow. I will avoid shrugs altogether and avoid reaching failure or even getting close to it. I was told to do daily rehab stuff that I have not done in over 4 months which was not smart, started the rehab stuff again.
There will be no polo this weekend. I have started listening to more trance music since I started Concerta. I really like the vibe of late 2000s melodic trance. I lay down on my bed and just listen to some music; it's very fun. Listening to music whilst walking or driving isn't as enjoyable as it is when you are in a relaxed environment. Would appreciate some recommendations for music, any kind really. Posted a tweet about recs on my twitter!
P.S. It is also Movember officially, do donate to men's charities. I used to think therapy and prostate cancer stuff was cringe till I attended a session last week and my grandad got cancer and beat in the span of one or two years without any harm. So if you can donate, please do, get tested for testicular and prostate cancer and help other dudes struggling
Here are some killer glitch hop tracks that were released just for movember cascade, [if you had'nt] (https://youtube.com/watch?v=14UjO4QzPfE) and mosaic
mrvanillasky
22d ago
I have sinus issues and do jal neti regularly, has helped me a ton. Get a neti pot, add lukewarm water, salt and do irrigation. When you do it, do not suck in or blow out water as that will cause it to get in your ears. Doing it regularly helps a lot. I was skeptical of it till I tried it. You can take an anti congestion spray and then do neti 10 minutes later if you have clogged nose.
For context, I am extremely suspectible to throat infections and have had to use anti bioticis very very frequently for it. Jal Neti is the safest thing I do daily to help me stay better.
mrvanillasky
22d ago
Met a few of them when I was out, cool people.
Learning social cues, self-perception and being in the moment (long post, slightly incoherent :) )
I noticed something interesting recently, ever since I started cold approaching, I can now read sub communications fairly well. A few days ago I saw my parents arguing where I could somehow see what they were actually trying to say vs what they were saying. It's somewhat like watching a movie with subtitles on and its in a different language. We try to hide so much whilst talking, many day-to-day habits that are unconscious copes similarly. The internet provides good feelings instantly, like a girl, its feeling, has zero net benefits but hey, we all want to feel good.
Most of my life, I sucked with girls. I used to hang out with nerdy kids since i wanted to go to a decent uni, my uni had no attractive girls at all, the guys hated doing anything besides bedrotting so I met zero girls via uni believe it or not (this is the average south indian experience btw, dont let others fool you). Many here would remember my post from 10th march 2021 on another wellness wedesnday thread where I was super upset about a girl meeting other dudes as I was stuck inside my house thanks to covid and my parents.
She was the first reactionary adjacent girl I knew. I never have met her but she lived about 5 hours away in the capital. Back then I believed in the obviously false Madonna/whore complex, wishing to just get a girlfriend who I could marry. Being around hindu twitter did not help as it only has losers, lo and behold they convinced me that pre-marital sex is bad and people doing it are unmanly. I always had these intense dantes like crushes on girls I would barely talk to. This girl saw me for a chode that I was back then. She did give me some crumbs of attention but I ended up just being super desperate and she met other guys. Which is how I learnt about cold approach.
Once I finally started cold approaching, I started liking women again. At a point I really hated them, that was because I was low status and saw no quick solutions. The day I got drunk last week, I texted a bunch of girls, including the one I met in pai. She looks ok but I just connected with her really well, first time i actually liked a girl again after my horrible oneitis situation. She did remember everything about me even how I cannot drink because I had bought concerta there though I stopped taking it before pai. "I have very few encounters, I remember you verywell" but later said "dude, what is the point, you are in India".
She was right, she could sense that I was simply texting her to get some validation or have sex, with the latter being impossible rn and the former being extremely needy. This is how I started actively paying attention to more cues and instantly saw a lot of things most people miss out on since I have done far more than most have with girls or ever will as most never approach.
I write this because I recently read parts of the tyler digest again and came across the rsd blog that has been dead for 14 years. Tyler the guy who started it had mild autism and his approach to pickup was one where you focued more on being a better person. I highly recommend you check out the tyler digest, in particular, stuff like "points of change", "the way that you percieve the world", "self limiting beliefs" etc. Seriously read the one titled "the way that you percieve the world", it is barely 3 pages. This blogpost is on the same line as that post.
The post rings true, for years I would write about my issues here on a forum that is mostly about culture war discussions. With my irl friends or the ones from far right hindu circles, I would eventually get mocked for trying to get adhd meds or being depressed but here people would appreciate me for being honest. Many would come text me that I write well despite me sounding like a lunatic half the time, or how they looked forward to reading more about my life. quite a few even added me on other platforms and helped me as much as they could. Almost all of them are happier people than the ones I used ot hang out with online, way more succesful too. This is also what I am trying to be like now.
My issues with girls existed primarily because I was not just low status but also deep down extrmely negative. My mind would find ways to tear everyone, literally everyone down so that I could feel good about myself. Unfortunately most people I meet are like that. It is rare to meet someone who is doing well and genuinely happy in a way that he/she can sense good in others. Most people think that pickup is where you go and learn a bunch of tricks and tactics to get a drunk girl to sleep with you yet this is simply untrue. Girls can sense how a guy feels, in most cases better than the can sense how is he is feeling himself because most of us lie to ourselves. The routines people crammed were just ways for them to not act like a scared person as their brains would feel calm when repeating the routine, therfore their subcommunications were not needy. Over time the person would get accustomed to positive outcomes and would shed all the routines.
Themotte does not like pickup and that is fine, in fact most suggestions I got from people here about not doing this stuff were well thought out and in good faith. I still wanted to share this article and the thought behind it. I would feel a little bad if I were to get a ton of downvotes on my commetns but that is sorta silly anyway.Now, just be happy or positive is cliched self help advice yet are we not all better off trying to appreciate things that are good instead of just trying to tear them down. Results come from actions, for years I was told to walk around the world pissed off, pissed off at my situation, at others and especially myself so that I would act yet it does the opposite. I would argue that trying to find genuine joy but still having habits that help you act in the direction you want to be in regardless might be a better way of looking at things, as at least you wont have crippling anxiety, after all what is the point of either negative or positive emotions if you are so result focued and if you simply focus on results, would being happier not help since then you will be able to work more?
I see trying to find joy in stuff as a better path towards ultimately doing more as the alternative made me feel worse. My brain always painted the past in a good light or make the distant future look good, it was finally when I took a week off after stopping work with my roommate and going to pai for a week that I felt good again. No matter how much I want to, I can only live in the now and present times are not as bad as I make them to, leaving culture war aside. My fondest memories up until then were me in high school, somehow stuck in 2016. It sounds very cheesy, I will get downvoted for wriitng another inchorenet rant but I don't want to lie about stuff. There I finally felt like life could be happy again, this sounds fucking crazy if you think about it. It was not even some high end vacation, I was living in mud huts with 4000 baht in my wallet for 7 days. My life condition was not any better as i did feel like shit once I came back and wrote updates, all my problems still existed which somehow could not prevent me from enjoying the present moment, even the little things.
A 23 or younger version of me would have tried to tear that place down, as talking about positivity and just being in the moment can be hippy talk, which it is to an extent and pai does have a ton of hippies. You can be present in the moment, work a lot and also have a positive outlook towards the world. This would seem like a cringe self help lesson to me but after experiencing some stuff and thinking about it, I would want to live this way. Ever since I started taking my meds, I can sense people around me having similar issues as I did. Most are unhappy, they lie about it and constantly seek validation and tear others down, barely get any work done and end up just sulking all day. A very sad sight, I am not above them by a lot, but I did get lucky to at least have had a bunch of unique life experiences which make me try my hardest to be that way.
The only two girls I ever liked as an adult were girls who were genuinely happy, something I was convinced was impossible up until a few days ago. They both looked good, way above average but not the kind that would make every guy drool, I met a few of those too. In ways I wanted to be like them, both were far more productive than any of my friends and somehow saw good things in me more than my friends did.
So yeah tl;dr try to look for the best in everything and be as productive as you can.
I had my first therapy session of my adult life at 24, yesterday. My psychiatrist who precribed me concerta (36 mgs) makes me attend mandatory counselling with a psychologist in her clinic every week. I have been to told to focus on these things in particular
- Waking up and sleeping at the same damn time daily. If I am late to bed, I must wake up at the same time regardless
- Going to the gym
- Coloring Mandalas daily with full focus
Besides these three things, the rest of her recommendations also outlined a schedule for me. She taught me some groudning techniques like how to walk super slowly whilst feeling your entire foot. These are to be used during breaks when I work. Apart from that "tratak meditation" where you just focus on one object (say a burning lamp) for minutes on end. I still prefer the stuff over at tantra illuminated but I will try this out. Reducing my screen time when not working to less than two hours, its hard as I am so used to getting validation from girls via texts or surfing, luckily the meds should help with this.
My hiatus from work is ending, I will finally start some basic front-end stuff for the first time in my life from tomorrow or day after, and will post updates on it. Being good at this stuff would ensure that I have a safety net of having a remote job as long as I have enough skills and know enough people. off to the gym now, I am working out with a quarter of the weights I was using before my injury on upper body lifts that are not tricep or bicep-focused. No point in rushing shoulder rehab.
- Diwali
yavat sthäsyanti girayah saritaś ca mahitale / tavad rāmāyaṇakatha lokeşu pracarisyati //
-The Valmiki Ramayana: Critical Edition, 1960-1975, 1.2.35
As long as the mountains and rivers shall endure upon the earth, So long will the tale of the Ramayana be told among the people.
It is Diwali on the 31st of October, most important hindu festival so most people are back in their hometowns. Somehow I dont feel that I am missing out by not interacting with people I once knew as most in my hometown or here in general refuse to think beyond their city or neighbourhood. The festival is alright, I don't have the same level of enthusiasm for it that I once had, partly because up until a few years ago I would psyche myself out with my religious identity to find some meaning in life which was clearly not good. Funny how that changed, I am still religious, its just hard to know whats true and whats not given how many scriptures are considered scriptures that are not actual scriptures. Hindus disallowed a bunch of stuff and it later got hardcoded. Vegetarianism and purity spirals against the use of nightshades, and overreliance on grains are all due to poverty which Brahmins later rationalised. Pointing this out gets me scolded so I just follow along.
- Ramayana
Regardless, a very happy Diwali to everyone here. Do check out Goldman's translation of Valmiki Ramayana. Lord Ram lived a very depressing and tough life to uphold dharma. Diwali marks his homecoming after a 14 year exile with his wife sita. Lord Ram was born to king dasarata, into the solar dynasty or suryavansa, simialr to gautam buddha. His father had 4 sons from three wifes, one of whom claimed two boons he promised to her on the day of his coronation. This meant that he would have to live in exile like a monk for 14 years and his younger brother bharat would be coronated instead. Dasrata could not say no and dies due to grief, asking for forgiveness from Ram. His wife and one of his brothers Laxman accompany him on his exile despite him arguing against it with both. Sita gets abducted by Ravana, a being of immense power who had not lost in battle and was seen as threat by all beings, divine or mortal. Ram gathers an army of simian creatures named vanars to fight a battle against Ravan and ends up slaying him in his country of Sri Lanka. The slaying of Ravan is celebrated as vijaydashami or dusshera. Tomorrow is his homecoming.
It can be argued that it was the happiest day of his life, one of the only ones as a family man since his wife, Sita was pregnant with his twin sons, both being unaware of it at the time. She ended up exiling herself from Ayodhya, his capital sometime later after people developed a false perception that she was unfaithful despite it not being true. They lit up the entire city of Ayodhya with lamps to mark his homecoming. He could have said no to the exile or many things he saw along the way. The popular conception of the epic is that he was this immortal all-knowing deity who walked the earth without any issues but Goldman's translation of the Valmiki Ramayana states that he was a mortal, who did not know that he was Vishnu in human form, unlike Krishna.
His living descendants funnily enough still make up a good portion of the armed forces here today. Ramayana is not like the Vedas where you have hard to decipher hymns or like the Mahabharat where you have hard moral choices at time. It is the quintessential epic, you can sum it up in in a paragraph, it is not super dense. The values inside of it are the very bedrock of what the religion. His is a hero's journey that captures everything good my people once had. He is seen as the human personification of Aryan or Dharmik ideals. Most people celebrating the festival know very little about it since no one here reads scriputres, the ones who do read them unfortunately choose ones that have been edited to make them PC.
Lord Rams has unfortunately been usurped by political forces who edit out scriptures to make him seem like an anti-caste sjw since Indian demographics would hate someone like him.
We will light up some fireworks, there was a time that every Diwali I would play an Arkham game or watch an animated batman movie. Pretty fun. My mom makes kheer, Indian rice pudding which is hands down my favourite thing to eat ever.
mrvanillasky
23d ago
The human biocapital in north west europe, especially Scandinavia is pretty good compared to a lot of other places. I forget which of them has higher reserves of natural resources but they all have people or rather used to.
mrvanillasky
23d ago
My problem is primarily biological, I do not have any grievances with people but mass migration will always lead to ethnic conflicts within people. India has this happen with what we call votebanks. The super low tfr and ever incresing number of migrants and their higher tfr can never be a good sign for any society given how unstable this can be down the road.
Whether one assimilates or not is a short term question. I will get downvoted for this but my own states culture got destroyed overnight just by having a bunch of other people come in. Culture is an offshoot of people not the other way around.
mrvanillasky
24d ago
Yeah, the election is brakes being applied on a car that will go faster once you take your foot off
mrvanillasky
24d ago
Yeah but what next after 4 years? Though 4 is better than 0
mrvanillasky
24d ago
Yeah, globalised bioleninism explains a ton
mrvanillasky
24d ago
These people had life on easy mode, natural resources, human biocapital, a high trust society where you had little crime yet the lack of ambition and virtue signalling is going to cause problems that are damn near unfixable.
mrvanillasky
24d ago
I saw this post on twitter linked by spandrell on swedens demographic decline. Extremely grim, even though I am not swedish or white.
Here is a link to the substack article in question. Just 50 percent ethnic swedes, what is wrong with Scandinavia?
mrvanillasky
24d ago
I have a noob question, so it is clear at this point that trump is getting some support, quite a bit of it from people you would not expect from. I am 24 now and have never stepped foot in the US but Internet addiction helped me get a pretty interesting view of things from the past 8 years culture war wise. Most sane people did not want to touch trump in 2016 and even insane ones would distance themselves from him in 2020 which is when internet censorship peaked in my humble opinion. Moldbug said that winning trumps everything, everyone wants to be on the winning team which maybe explains why vc types are publicly supporting trump.
So are we in a thermidor right now? Does this mean that the world has achieved peak bioleninism or will it be like 2016? Because moldbug was correct to analyse that because of trump winning in 2016, the overton window shifted faster than it should have as the cathedral had a reason to mobilize all of its energy.
There was a lot of euphoria around 2016 with regards to trump, now I am an nrx guy, I am aware of how liberal democracies basically act as smokescreens because trump did have a lot of difficulties getting anything good done. Now there is one positive for the amerikaner that the trump campaign is talking about cracking down on illegal immigrants of all kinds, though I am skeptical since trump did disassociate himself from Project 2025. The present only makes sense once it becomes the past, will trump even win, not sure but will hm winning be any better than last time? Will the demographic shifts not mean that in the long term this may not matter? hard questions.
mrvanillasky
24d ago
Any updates to this since 2020? Will read the article though, embryo selection and crispr are some of the most important technologies that seem to not get as much attention as they should.
mrvanillasky
25d ago
My feet come off only when I try to go 100 per cent, so the bike works if I am going slower than 90 per cent. thanks for the pointer about the toes btw. Any suggestions on how many minutes or what intensity I should use it for?
mrvanillasky
25d ago
A cheap one without any ways of seeing how fast I'm going or any metrics. It has flat pedals without anything holding my foot back like straps.
So I figured that just doing 30 minutes at 70 percent of what I can do would be a start, maybe 40 if 70 is too much.
The seat is fucked too as not super ergonomic but I just want to get my heart rate up. It's safer than running.
mrvanillasky
26d ago
It's not a caste thing, it's a political thing. Embryo selection itself selects existing embryos, I'm not a biologist but I assume that smarter people will have far far more outliers.
Worse, the government might make caste based affirmative action a thing in it, most likely scenario.
More than that Indias default is to ban things lol
mrvanillasky
26d ago
Any suggestions for how to do spin bike sessions properly. I tried hiit sprints and that was a disaster as my foot would slip from the bike at super high pace, I can't use it like an assault bike and want to do something for my heart on days I don't work out. I do hope I find a better gym soon with an airdyne, till then, this is all I got
mrvanillasky
26d ago
I tweeted about gene editing and its consequences besides iq yesterday lol. It won't happen in India sadly, this place is dysfunctional for a reason. Indias average iq is apparently and allegedly 82.
mrvanillasky
27d ago
Life does not end at 30 but in that age, around 30-35, I would want to have kids. There is obviously something about being young, I appreciate things that come at different chapters of life, like how I do think that teenage love is a wonderful experience or how kicking it with friends when your in high school is.
Life 10 years ago was simpler than now, if this is true then 10 years later I might be a father with kids and that is added responsibility. Still, if I can still occasionally do this stuff then why no :)
Most of my life I just wanted to grow up, grow older and leave my house, sure my life has issues now, still I can and should enjoy the good in a way that helps me do better. It felt nice kicking it with drunk folks, I may not drink but look forward to more of this lol
mrvanillasky
27d ago
lol i had no clue
Hindu twitter gets everything from Pop American right wing, I am yet to meet anyone there who has read anything beyond tweets. The term they used for themselves for instance was trad which they copied from trad caths who likely copied it from actual traditionalists like evola and guenon.
The basic issue is that once you dig deep enough and realise that a lot of scriptures that are considered scriptures are just made up (kalki avatar for instance), you would come to the realisation that the shared identity people have even on this niche community is on shaky grounds. Add in them knowing little about history or political science and you get this kind of rhetoric. The place is best left alone, no one there is doing anything worthwhile.
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