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Sigh. Fine, I'll repeat myself while filtering the irony out: while it's true that POTUS has better access to knowledge than anyone, it's still up to him what to do and believe. You'd think that wide access to the internet would kill and bury many falsehoods, but this isn't how it works. Trump campaigned specifically on his opposition to corrupt, hostile branches of the government. That he doesn't appear to take much advantage of his special access, or of a google search for that matter, shouldn't be surprising

Trump is a well known oddball, an oddball of the same age Biden was when he started his first term, I might add. Did you not elect him to crush the deep state, banish drag-queens from schools, deport every illegal immigrant or whatever and defy hostile parts of government?

Here's your based, unyielding chieftain. He has already figured everything he needs out, as he was meant to. Did you expect him to listen to something so silly as secret services? Down with that woke nonsense!

it took Boris Johnson LARPing Churchill to persuade him into not signing the first reasonable deal Russia put on the table. This is all a matter of public record.

footnote made in tiny script: best we know, the reasonable deal was "we invaded you once, then again, but if you cut your army and promise to not enter mutual defense alliances we pinky promise to not invade you again"

there's no hope left, the Russians could hit anyone lower down in the government with the same weapon.

It's not that bad. If you're not a near senile boomer with notoriously little concern and knowledge about foreign affairs, your gullibility should be lower.

[religion] I am constitutionally unsuited for.

In the same boat, but even if I don't have it in me to believe in any religion, I firmly believe that something outside of crude reality that we inhabit is necessary for any of this, including suffering, to make sense. It's basically what people mean by spirituality, that there is a larger context we have no direct access to now, but in which we and the rest of the world are embedded.

For those of us who can't simply have faith, what we can rely on boils down to humility&hope.

bride seemed happy

what about the groom?

Needing the conventional "self" for "meaning" is a delusion, a story your mind is telling to itself.

Can every thought, feeling, conclusion, value judgement be framed as "story"? Maybe I don't quite get what this means for you

Why attach yourself to wanting to keep having pain

Evolution wants you constantly hungry. Never permanently happy.

Neither do I.
I don't want to be "happy", I don't want to be "content". I have no use for equanimity of a sheep grazing out on a sunny day. I'd rather be eternally hungry, and eternally discontent in pursuit of infinite heights. Of what is worth perceiving, understanding, possessing, enjoying. Camping on the roadside to catch my breath is good and well, but that's not where I'd like to get stuck
How would I do that without any drives and passions, without sense of frustration over not yet having it yet? When pain stands in my way, it becomes another obstacle to conquer, and here meditation and stoic techniques (in moderation) come in handy.
However, obsessing over min-maxing suffering and pleasure is just a waste of my time. Centering your ethics/metaphysics around this is a dead end. It's an animal thing to do.
It's unbecoming of me as a man. This is a betrayal of myself

You don't need it to live or to function. Definitely don't need it to be happy


Yet I need it for something far more important - Meaning. Pain is the proof that you're alive, as well as the price of it. I strongly hold that it's necessary to believe that joy ultimately prevails over sadness, beauty over ugliness, and so on.
I'd rather pursue the strength to bear my pains, than try to extinguish it along with myself through wire-heading praxis of ancient oriental death-cults.

How is that liberating? If you don't have yourself, what do you even have?

Thanks for sharing. I'm not sure how much of it I understand though.
Do you believe in God? Are you trying to believe, act as if you do, or some other variant, or do you have a firm "faith" of some kind, a feeling you didn't have before, but now do?

Gaining firm footing under my feet, existentially, meta-narratively speaking

When you say "this" is so very tiresome, what is the "this" you are referring to? Existence? Or the navel-gazing that you may be prone to?

Neither? Both? I want answers, a resolution, good or bad.

I narrowed down the span of possibilities to roughly two options:
1.I'm a meat clockwork with a peculiar quality of being obsessed with the fact that it is a meat clockwork.
2.I'm a soul with acute awareness of the inadequacy of a merely material universe, yet unable to even confirm any that "outside" exists, let alone make any other progress
Either way, this is so very tiresome.
More generally, as I age I find I'm just getting increasingly fed up with my eccentricities, rather overcoming, integrating or getting used to them as I'd have hoped.