BlindDeafRat
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BlindDeafRat
9d ago
Maritime. Work on a cargo ship. If you're in the engine room it's hot, you can work for 6 months straight, without leaving the ship, and you probably have to be pretty careful not to mess anything up.
Unfortunately it does involve a lot of travel. Pretty sure there's tugs that aren't away from home for as long, but most of the jobs mean you won't be home for a while. At least you don't have to actually travel anywhere in a car or a plane once you're on the ship.
BlindDeafRat
14d ago
Kind of sad to see people keep repeating this.
Because it's true. There are some niche topics for which you can't really find similar discussion elsewhere, and I like checking those threads, but I only need to do that once a week at most because of how slow they are.
But as a whole, in order to use the site you need not just an addon to filter like 90% of the threads on the board because they're general that offer no value, or a bait thread, and then once you find a thread you gotta filter another 30% to get rid of the inane shitposting that's easily filtered. Then you need to read the 60% of the other shitposting that you can't filter, and then you're left with something that actually has value.
The quality of almost all the boards is at an all time low. /n/ is almost dead, /g/ is complete trash. /v/ has been trash for a decade.
/lit/ is completely worthless. The only good general on that board was removed by the jannies. /sffg/ isn't quite as bad as the big subreddits for discussing fantasy/sci-fi. But the smaller ones like /r/rational are way, way better.
/vg/ has some good threads on niche topics. But here's the thing, if it's too niche, then it'll get kicked off the board by yet another gacha general. Which means even good threads still have to have some sort of shitposting to fill the dead air, which in turn just lowers the thread quality.
Would I prefer to have a good 4chan alternative with better site design and more attentive moderation over our current set up of having isolated Discords and subreddits and other sites instead of having one site for everything? Of course.
But at this stage of the internet, I don't see how you can grow a community for a site like that. 8chan was built on being for the kinds of people that were kicked off of 4chan, and in turn it means its quality will forever be low.
I still check the 4chan archives regularly because you can find a lot of useful info there, but the site itself is just not worth using for me.
BlindDeafRat
17d ago
Most discussion is on Discord and a lot of it is actually on X/twitter. I don't know why you'd use Patreon for that.
They're the most popular, but there's tons of other similar podcasts that popped up in the last few years.
BlindDeafRat
17d ago
BlindDeafRat
1mo ago
Peripeteia is an immersive sim that could fit. There are some elements like that, like there are some secret stashes, but overall you're given huge levels without much direction, and it's up to you to explore them.
It has a demo on Steam, which is the first level of the game. If you don't like the demo, you won't like the game. It is in early access, but the demo works well as a self contained experience too. I played it for 10 hours, when you can finish it in one pretty comfortably.
Otherwise for games with minimal elements like that you can look at Thief 1 and 2, or The Dark Mod fan missions. You still have a mechanical goal to accomplish to finish the mission, meaning obtain enough gold, and steal something specific. But otherwise you're free to explore.
BlindDeafRat
1mo ago
If you want something similar, but with a focus on the pvp then I'd recommend Hunt Showdown. Has the same big maps, good gunplay, great sound design.
My issue with it is that instead of being able to go to different locations to loot, and then extract, you basically always focus on getting to the location with the boss, killing it, and then extracting. So it leads to more focused, but also somewhat repetitive encounters.
BlindDeafRat
1mo ago
The Medium is fun, but nowhere as good as the Wailing. Closer to a traditional horror movie. Still worth a watch.
The Wailing is one of my favourite movies all the time, and the closest movie to it is the original Wicker Man from 1973. Same as the Wailing, it kind of relies on spoilers, so I won't say much more than that. It also has an amazing ost. One of the songs in has been sampled in some modern electronics albums.
Perfect Run is too much of a comedy and is too "wacky" for me. Where as both MoL and YoA are overall pretty serious.
BlindDeafRat
1mo ago
Witcher 1 captured the superhuman warrior feeling a lot better, at least visually. Mechanically it's a rhythm game where you click at the right time, but visually, especially the group style captures it really well.
The game is very rough though, so it can be hard to get into. It's very impressive seeing the difference in budget and looks from Witcher 1 to Witcher 3.
BlindDeafRat
2mo ago
As a preface, I'm someone who has read a lot of Chinese xianxia, dozens of different stories, most for at least 500 chapters and have come to the conclusion that most English authors completely misunderstand xianxia.
Xianxia is a low brow genre, on the same level as litrpgs and light novels, but it is extremely fun to read. The issue is that most xianxia writers get paid by word, so the more they write, the more they make. In turn this has resulted in a number of common tropes that exist solely to pad the word count. Extremely easily offended young masters are the most common example. And these are also the novels most English authors read, and are inspired by.
But the issue is, those stories aren't well constructed, and if you try to create another story off of it, it will be also be built on shaky foundations. Like it's easy to poke holes in common tropes, but while you can write one book about it, it just doesn't work in the long form structure that webnovels are written in.
All in all, xianxia is a great genre, that offers something you will never find in the West, but also is hard to understand without reading enough of it/or just growing up in China.
Maybe I just heavily dislike comedies.
BlindDeafRat
2mo ago
I would read a post on you on how you got into Xianxia, and what you like about it.
The genre doesn't really get many quality posts, and it would be interesting to see your view on it. I was going to do something similar, but I've been putting it off for ages.
BlindDeafRat
3mo ago
Some frankly insane bastards persevere nonetheless, becoming one with the Dao of MTL, and self-reportedly no longer see the broken Mandarin Matrix but grokk the underlying intent. Unfortunately, often at the cost of being unable to process normal English.
That's why I stopped reading Chinese novels. When I read them, even though I read "translated" novels(I started around 2017, and back then shitty translations were much worse than MTL/LLMs are now) my ability to read anything else became much worse. I speed-read them, because the faster I go through a story, the pacing and other things make up for the lacking in coherence. In the end I got to a point where I could almost skim past sentences if I didn't find them interesting.
Although I also just ran out of stuff to read. I drop things very quickly if I don't like them, and I dropped almost everything I tried, so I read novels on Royalroad and English web novels like Worm instead.
BlindDeafRat
3mo ago
BlindDeafRat
4mo ago
I like them a lot, but I've found that there's two ways a map goes for me. Either I rush, and pause every few seconds to move stuff forward, and it's super stressful to play.
Or I take my time, but at some point the game becomes slow and tedious. I wish there was a better way to control your units. Like selecting and moving multiple units at once sucks because it doesn't take terrain into account, so you have to move every unit individually, and you have to move them forwards again and again. I really wish you could plan and then execute multiple commands where they move forward after the creep has been pushed back to a certain point, basically programming them to act a certain way. But I only played Creeper World 4. Maybe 3 is different.
BlindDeafRat
5mo ago
I generally agree with this post, so this is more in a further reply to your other post on small scale question sunday.
I would honestly suggest going through that 4chan /lgbt/ archive link I posted in the other thread. Just as an example. I'm a man in a relationship, with another man, and we're both relatively normal. Not feminine, not masculine. But I have AGP as well. I have sexual fantasies of being a woman. In fact they're the predominant type when it comes to fantasies. But in reality I'm attracted to men, and I'm not sexually attracted to women, I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with one either. And this isn't really an uncommon view among various transwomen I've talked to, or lurked around. Like in the agpgen link, despite being about agp, most people seem to be into men.
Another thing to consider is that some people have experienced becoming attracted to men after starting HRT. After all, if you hate your male body, it would make sense you'd hate homosexuality too, since it's just two men. It makes more sense for someone with gender dysphoria to hate homosexuals than someone without. But what if you were female? Would you want to be with a man then?
Otherwise I usually I avoid all openly trans spaces because the main topic of discussion there is being trans, which I don't care about. But if you find more private discussions it's a lot better. Which is why I like agpgen. It's inherently about sex, so people will tend to be more honest about what they really like, rather than what they say to look good to their tribe.
I see transitioning as a valid choice, even if our current technology is lacking when it comes to actually going through it. But if we had more advanced tech, or if there was, like you said, a magic button I could press that would turn me female, I'd press it without hesitation too.
BlindDeafRat
5mo ago
I'm not really sure what you want, but if I'm understanding you correctly you can look at the repressor general/repgen on 4chan's /lgbt/ board. I don't know if it's still like that, because I haven't checked it in years, but the general idea is that they want to transition but won't because they wouldn't pass, or they do take HRT but don't present as women. Some voice train to sound feminine, but only use it online. While some of them don't take HRT at all, I think a sizable amount do, so it should still fit your criteria.
There's a also something similar "boymodding", but from what I understand that's usually temporary(present as male while in the early stages of HRT/pre face feminization surgery). There's also something called "Manmodding" that's supposed to be more permanent, but I only know the terms in passing.
Looking through the archives through an archival site like this is probably the best way to do it, since individual threads won't offer much more than "woe is me". There's also the AGP threads on the archives you can check(think they're banned on the board, although enforcement is selective), agpgen is way more interesting, but they are pro transition unlike repgen. If you don't know, you can change the repgen in the subject to agpgen if you want to search the other.
As far as info goes on what you want, that's probably the most easily accessible public source. It won't be easy to sift through it to get to the information you want, but it is there, somewhere.
Wouldn't have transitioned in similar circumstances, in the cultural climate of, say, 20+ years ago, (i.e. comparing to counterfactual of born 20 years earlier, making decision 20 years ago, not comparing to past self) but did transition in recent years (or is about to start transition now)
I feel like that's the case for most of them. If it was 20 years ago, and even if you had gender dysphoria you'd suppress it, or manage it through crossdressing or other ways. If you wanted to transition back then you really had to seek it out. The average transwoman from back then is a whore or a porn actor. These days it's much more visible, you see a lot of news about trans topics, even if you don't really see anyone who is trans, meanwhile online you have entire communities which are easily found by anyone. And the process of transition is easier too, you can order HRT online easily, and there's tons of guides to regarding dosages and other stuff relating to it. I don't have any statistics, but quite a few trans people did either start through DIY and then switched to official, or stayed DIY.
Another thing to look at more specifically is the last few years, aka Covid. This is completely anecdotal, but I think that if you look back to the years 2020, 2021, and 2022 you will see a huge spike in transitions. Everyone being inside and online, meant you were more likely to spend time thinking about it and see it and wearing a mask made passing easier too which helped with the woes of early transition.
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As to this, if you want the most common example you can look at a "failed males". Nerdy interests, no friends, shut in, depressed, anxious, likely autistic. There's also an incel to trans pipeline too. HRT has created irreparable changes to any community that has a lot of autistic males, like programming, speed running, video games in general. There's definitely examples of successful people transitioning, but most were depressed prior. There's reason for the 42%? attempted suicide rate, that's often spammed online as a meme.
Although looking at your past posts, I feel like this post might not really be of much use to you, but whatever. Since you mentioned autogynephilia in an earlier post, but I hope it at least offers something.
BlindDeafRat
5mo ago
Probably not what you want since it's more of a niche thing, but there's this genre in Japan called Utattemita (歌ってみた), the basic premise is that first you have the producer make a song, usually with Vocaloid/artificial vocals. And then the songs are covered by amateurs. You can see so many different covers of the same song, male, female, and kinds of different singers, although the oldest are probably in their 30s. Sometimes the producer themselves also sings it.
It's used to listen to it a lot, but if you don't like the music style, it won't do much for you.
BlindDeafRat
6mo ago
Jargon is a better word, I didn't mean anything by rhetoric. And it's not just the terms, I feel like your viewpoint is also very similar to the depressed repressors there, but I guess that has also (tragically) spread outside of the board.
BlindDeafRat
6mo ago
Funny to see Bisnap here. I also stopped watching him around the same time.
BlindDeafRat
6mo ago
I really liked playing Arkane games, especially Dishonored 1, but after Deathloop I completely lost interest. It got high reviews, and if you mention it on Reddit most people say they like it, but it lacks everything that made their other games interesting, and instead makes it a theme park. It's the ideal gaming journalist game. You go on a short ride for 9 hours, and you're done forever. You can look, but you can't actually do anything except sit in your chair and see your character do all the actually interesting things you could've done in the previous games. On top of that they butchered half the mechanics so they could add pvp multiplayer, which added absolutely nothing for me.
Redfall was even worse, so I didn't even try playing it. And now they're making a third person Blade game. Maybe I'll be good, I don't know.
I don't think it's all bad though. I doubt we'll ever see a similar game of that type from a AAA dev, but there's plenty of cool indie studios making like that look promising, especially something like Peripeteia.
BlindDeafRat
6mo ago
It's so strange to see /tttt/ rhetoric on here.
I consider myself a male who takes estrogen and bicalutamide more or less as a cosmetic procedure and/or mental health intervention
Do you take HRT from a prescription? Or DIY?
BlindDeafRat
7mo ago
I agree with the BahRamYou that there's no malevolent conspiracy. Women simply spend more money on media they consume. So publishers cater to them.
I’m talking UK/Irish literary fiction, which is not internet native. It’s offline establishment native.
The ones I talked about with shounen/shoujo is offline. It has physical sales. Same thing in China. Where despite the CCP's stance against homosexuality some of the most popular novels and tv shows are danmei, which are stories with gay romance, but without the sex and kissing. Whose fanbase is primarily female.
As a sideways related example, Entourage was a hit mainstream US show, centering on four male characters and their interests, ambitions struggles, screened between 2004-11. When you watch it now and realise that there’s an almost 0% chance of anything like it being approved now, never mind be given prime time slots for years, you realise how far the mind virus has gone in the decision making corridors of power across all mainstream publishing and media.
If you want stories that are made for and by men, there's plenty of webnovels you can read on Royalroad or self published on Amazon, or fanfics on Spacebattles or other sites.
And actually there are still shows made primarily for men. Reacher, Jack Ryan, Terminal List. Adaptations of novels that probably do still have a primarily male readership.
BlindDeafRat
7mo ago
Do you have experience with long term relationships? I know that gay men on average aren't known for being in monogamous long term relationships, and I don't think these dynamics really apply in long term relationships.
Also, anecdotally, I have an older sister and no older brothers and I'm still gay.
And in regards to anal, I enjoy masturbation and especially being the bottom, and I've never felt any pain. Here is a really detailed guide for it. It's not like it'll change your mind, but it might be interesting at least.
For ships that sail between US ports you are required to have a certain number of American crew because of the Jones Act. However that only applies for the US. Not only that, the pay is actually pretty good. At least as far as blue collar work goes.
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